Monday, December 2, 2013

Day One - the beginning

10/27/13
Today is my first day on the Ideal Protein diet.  I have been a bit nervous about taking it on and I still am...  I keep telling myself to stop whining about what I won't be able to have while I am on the program, and think of what I will have in just a few months if I do this seriously. It is not the food limitations that bother me nearly as much as the idea of not drinking, at all...  It is hard to admit but likely accurate that I have not gone without alcohol for more than a couple of weeks since my early 20s.  It is a sobering thought and one that keeps popping up for me.  I am not an alcoholic but I do like most everything that goes with a few cocktails - except the weight gain and an occasional hangover.  Chris (my partner - you will be hearing much about her I expect) and I had a drink at the wine bar in Brattleboro last night and I love it!  The relaxation, the treat of having someone mix a martini for me or pour a nice glass of wine...  It is like losing a friend.  Then again, quitting smoking felt much the same way and yet this time, I can honestly tell myself that it doesn't have to be forever. Just as I am resetting my body physically, it is the opportunity to reset my relationship with alcohol...

I was not expecting it but I already have a killer headache. It definitely feels like a withdrawal headache.  This surprises me because I didn't think I took in a ton of sugar. But, maple syrup in my coffee and half and half must have a good amount of sugar that I had not ever considered.  I will forge through it and hope it gets better. More water and if necessary, I will take some Advil.  Maybe a Sunday nap is in order....

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